Thank You, Next..

Thought I’d end up with Dennis, but he wasn’t a match. Wrote some songs about John, now I listen and laugh. Even almost got married and for Andrew, I’m so thankful. Wish I could say “thank you” to Michael cause he was an angel.

One Taught Me Love

One Taught Me Patience

One Taught Me Pain

Now I’m so amazing. I’ve loved and I’ve lost, but that is not what I see.

So Look What I Got

  • Finished a bachelors degree in biology
  • Traveled to amazing places around the world
  • Gained amazing and wonderful friends in the process
  • Made my way back to Jesus.
  • Grew from the drama
  • Accomplished dreams and goals

Look What You Taught Me

  • To be stronger with the healing
  • Love is a verb
  • I have dreams worth pursuing
  • Some people come into your life to teach you to let go.
  • There is nothing wrong with who I am
  • Still loveable even if broken by someone else
  • Let of the fear of striking out – the game of baseball
  • New hobbies I never knew I enjoy.
  • How to be single and love it.

And for that, I say thank you, next. I’m so grateful for my exes.

I spend more time with my friends, I ain’t worried about nothing. Plus I met someone, we have better discussions, but this is going to last. He taught me love, he taught me patience, and how he handles pain, that sh!t is amazing. But that is not what I see, cause look what I’ve found. No need to search for love the old ways.

I’m grateful for my exes, thank you next.

One day I’ll walk down the aisle holding hands with my Dad. I’ll be thankful my Dad for helping me grow from all the drama. Only want to do it once real bad. Going to make it last. God forbid something should happen. Going to last.

I have so much love, have so much patience. I’ve learned from the pain. I turned out amazing because of it. I’ve loved and I’ve lost, but that’s not what I see. Cause look what I have found.

For that, I say thank you, next. Thank you to my exes for letting me go to find something better.

When this song came out I felt the validation in what I have been telling myself over the years. Every heartbreak, every moment I accomplished something I have dreamt of finally coming to reality. But mostly the song shows how far I have come in finding the one who one day come along and stay my life. To those who are still searching for love or yet to find love, the journey is full of heartbreak, beauty and unexpected moments that will shape you into who you are meant to be. In the end the one person who is meant to stay in your life may it be a guy or a girl, will be thankful for all your exes because this person will have the best you. Love is a verb. Love happens when you love others as well as yourself.

Thank You, Next by Ariana Grande. Original song lyrics by Ariana Grande with altered lyrics by me.

Finding Lovely In My Twenties

Finding lovely in moments of life. As I move on to the next decade of my life, I want to reflect on the lovely moments in my twenties. The small details that are at times overlooked during a period of life when learning to be an adult is the hardest. Where the bigger picture in one’s head drowns out the smaller pictures making up the bigger one. This is what being twenty is about, finding lovely and looking for lovely in the smaller aspects of life.

Her proposal was a trail of bibles with each one flipped and highlighted with a bible verse about love, commitment, and marriage leading to her future husband. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?! Someone please inform my future husband!!!!!!!!:

I’ve made most of my twenties by working hard at my jobs and played a fair amount along the way. I ran half marathons, ran from God and then ran back to him and flung my arms around his neck saying please don’t let go. I have read countless books on many topics. I ate a lot, stopped eating, then started eating differently, and more healthy. Developed healthier relationships with God, my body, and friendships. I have traveled to places, dreamed and took scary steps to the next stage in life. I have had good days, ugly moments, ugly cried and laugh-cried my way through ten years. Days have been long, but these years were short and time was sweet summer nights on a front porch.

All of our interpretations are based on the ‘internal map’ of reality that we have, and not the real truth. Our ‘map’ is a result of our personal life’s collective experiences. Our thoughts are linked to this invisible energy and they determine what the energy forms. Look around you. Everything you see in our physical world started as an idea, an idea that grew as it was shared and expressed, until it grew enough into a physical object through a number of steps. -Spirit Science:

I have wrecked and renewed relationships. Loved my friends and failed them. Times I have asked myself where all my friends had gone and then learn to be a better friend. I have built friendships from the ground up and resurrected relationships after I set fire to them through careless actions. I have pushed my family away and then ran back to them to seek comfort and security I needed. I sought meaning, love, and value where there were not meant to be sought. I have been broken and emptied before I could slowly patch myself up and be filled again. I have questioned my motives and at times God. I have said goodbye to destructive relationships with people who were toxic. I have left a trail of broken and imperfect steps of my past behind me as I did so. I left an abusive relationship and became stronger in my single season of healing. I have poured myself into others lives as they have poured theirs lives into mine. I can never say I wouldn’t do anything differently but looking back I called it redeemed life.

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I’ve changed for the better. In the ten years, I’ve worked hard, taken risks, changed jobs, and changed direction. Changed my philosophies and perspectives about what is life. I’ve been changed by my faith and my faith has changed me. I have left behind many of the misconceptions I once held to be true. I have dropped, picked up and then dropped again the baggage of my past I have collected. I have found new joy in same old things I have been doing for years. I have been stagnant, stretched and renewed. I have broken out of my introverted shell only to later retreat to long time comforts of being an introvert. I’ve held titles of a student, lab assistant, lab technician, research associate, friend, blogger, daughter, sister, girlfriend, learner, wander and beloved. I’ve evolved into a person my twenty-year-old self would not be able to recognize, but I think she would love a whole lot.

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Looking back I have pictured myself as a twenty-year-old a career, marriage, and possibly a baby, but along the way, things changed. There are mere lovely details along the path to thirty that makes up for the disappointments of my twenty-year-old self. My twenties taught me anything it’s changed is slow and often imperceptible at the whole of a period. The tiny moments collected along the way propelling forward into bustling new life ahead. I see this as a view a small part of the larger picture of my life. I have found lovely in my twenties. 

Enjoy where life takes you! #hiking #quote #getoutside #life:

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. ~John 14:27